I'm sorry that I haven't written you in a while. As you know I talk to you throughout the day though. I feel so guilty that I'm trying to move on. I feel like I've ran out of people to talk to about how I'm feeling. Nobody wants to hear how much I miss you. Being pregnant doesn't help either. I'm not trying to replace you like everyone seems to think. I just want to stop feeling like this. It's getting hard to act like I'm fine.
Tomorrow is my appointment to find out if I'm having a boy or girl. I have all of this pressure from my family to have a boy. But, I don't want the baby to be a boy. I want a girl, I want you. I'm ust hoping that this baby is healthy.
Your Uncle Adam is getting married next June!! I was really excited about it, until I heard that him and Amanda asked Amber to be in the wedding party and they didn't ask me. It's funny because Amanda doesn't even like Amber, I think the only reason that they asked her is because they asked her boyfriend Emerson to be in it. I can't believe I'm this upset over it though.
I miss you more than anyone could ever comprehend.
God, please give me strength to cope with life's overwhelming circumstances.
Jaida Grace Leighton was born on September !st, 2010 at 2:00 am in Phoenix, AZ. She weighed 6lbs. 10oz. and was 19 1/2 inches long. Jaida passed away 38 minutes later. This is my story of life after losing her.
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