Today was the first day that I have been able to listen to the soundtrack that I have made of songs that remind me of you, without crying through it. I guess I'm feeling strong today. At least stronger than yesterday. Girly, you sure made a huge impact on my life. The way that I view life in general. No more rose colored glasses. I appreciate life so much more. I get goosebumps at some pretty ackward times. People ask me if I'm cold, and I graciously tell them that I'm a very emotional person. Any time I see your sisters do something for their first time, it's hard for me to catch my breath. I will always dream of seeing you do things for your first time. Your first breath, your first cry, your first smile, your first steps, your first birthday...
I will always think about the what if's and the could have been's. Only the good things, because I can't imagine the bad. You were a blessing sent to me. You and I will be together someday.
Mommy loves you, Jaida!!
Jaida Grace Leighton was born on September !st, 2010 at 2:00 am in Phoenix, AZ. She weighed 6lbs. 10oz. and was 19 1/2 inches long. Jaida passed away 38 minutes later. This is my story of life after losing her.
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