I'm so stressed out!!

Hi Angel. Sorry that I haven't written in a while. I went to the doctor yesterday, and found out that I'm pregnant. I'm scared to death!! I haven't told your grandma yet, because I'm worried that she will up and move out. I am worried sick that something might go wrong with this baby. My doctor told me to quit taking the paxil that I've been on. I saw on a commercial that women who take paxil while pregnant, have babies with cleft lips, and other birth defects. Luckily, I found out soon enough to get off of them. I have never experienced morning sickness until this pregnancy. It's awful. I puked all over myself when I was in grandpa's van yesterday. Jaida, I want you to know that I'm not replacing you. Nothing or no one could ever replace you. I still miss you every single day. Can you please talk to God for me, and ask him to help me find peace of mind. I have been praying about it, but I worry so much. I don't think that I could handle losing another baby. I hope it's a boy.