A ray of hope

Your big sister Jenna goes to school at St. John's Lutheran, which is also where we go to church. My faith has been dwindling quite a bit since my pastor told me that you weren't in Heaven, so I was avoiding going to church there. I actually started going to another one right next door to my house, called Faith Chapel. The first time I went there was your birthday, and I was actually walking home from St. John's when the pastor from Faith Chapel saw us and yelled service starts here in 15 minutes. I told him I'd be right back, and walked home to drop the Sunday School art projects off, and I went back. Your sister's went to Sunday School, and I went to service. While I was sitting there a woman named Danielle, came to welcome me, and actually decided to sit with me. After the service, we were talking, and I mentioned that it was your birthday. Tears came to her eyes, as she said that she also lost a baby. Her daughter Hope would have turned 2 on September 19th.  I believe that God lead me there.
Jenna's teacher stopped me in the hallway yesterday when I picked her up, and again told me again, that if there was anything that I needed just to let her know. Well, today I got a call from the preschool teacher at St. John's, that someone anonomously paid for Katie to attend preschool there!! What a blessing!!
Jaida, I miss you so much!! It just kills me that I will never have the honor to take you to your first day of school. I had so many hopes and dreams for you. I love you more and more as the days pass.